眼淚成詩 我已經　已經把我傷口化作玫瑰 我的淚水　已經變成雨水早已輪回 我已經　已經把對白留成了永遠 忘了天色　究竟是黑是灰 分手傷了誰　誰把他變美 我的眼淚寫成了詩已無所謂 讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉 因為回憶總是美＊ 我已經　已經把絕情變成了恭維 因為不配　你就忽然自卑說聲失陪 我已經　已經把沉默變成了懺悔 無路可退　只能無言以對

任性
喜歡唱歌　感人的歌　它讓我覺得愛是對的
睡不著　我就醒著　不再讓日子被打亂了
寂寞很吵　我很安靜　情緒很多　我很鎮定
因為投入　所以放棄　不願再被痛醒＊
固執算不算任性的要求　付出也可能看不到結果
終於你還是選擇了放手　用逃避　讓感情犯錯＃
喜歡唱歌　動人的歌　它讓我獲得一點心得
得不到　我就放掉　不去碰觸到我的需要
承諾算不算任性的要求　人總是不能太容易感動
當愛失去自我失去包容　只想要　從混亂解脫
喜歡聽歌　動人的歌　它讓我覺得愛是對的

My church held a Missions conference Friday night, Saturday morning and Sunday during church services.  I only went to Friday night and Sunday service.  Kwai Lin was the speaker for Friday, and I was so moved by what she said.

As a Christian, I had contemplated a couple of times to go to short-term mission.  A friend of mine down in SF even proposed that we should go to the same place together so that we can share the experience.  However, I've often thought about it, but didn't put it to action.  On the other hand, Kwai Lin put forth her life to go Mongolia with her family, despite her daughter's heart condition (she has to put in a pacemaker, and there was no electricity in Mongolia back then.)  Still they pray and rely on God.  Sometimes we are so content in our comfort zone that we don't want to move a finger outside, but Kwai Lin's testimony showed me that I should step outside my comfort zone, ask God what His plan is on me, and just put my faith in Him to do whatever He ask of me.

Today's service Kwai Lin talked about how God paid the greatest price to save us -- Jesus.  As times go by, we sometimes forgot that we are given a life so precious.  As Kwai Lin puts it -- salvation is free, but it's not cheap.  I don't think I'd put forth that high a price for people whom I just want to give a chance.  Yet God didn't think twice about it.  The salvation is put into place since Adam and Eve fall from the Garden of Eden.

I'd like to go on a short-term mission at least once.  I want to experience and see the "field".  I want to go out to that "field" and see what I can or cannot do.  Kwai Lin reminded us that when we spread the Good News, what is most important is that we spread the word, and not to emphasize on whether the person's willingness to believe or not.  That's the work of God, not the work of us.  If it's in God's will, the Word will touch people's life, yet we need to help spread it before it can touch anyone.  This is the part where Kwai Lin mentioned about "business partnership" between God and mankind. 

The more I experience God, the more I have yet to fathom His greatness.  Yes, His greatness.  I look at my life, I look at what I have, I look at what I don't have.  I look around me, and everything is a cause to praise Him.  I often wish that I have better skills in communicating my thoughts and feelings, so that I can better express myself on the emotional side than on the logical side.