Clownfish

有沒有試過想說話但口卻說不出一個字？

 

有沒有試過感覺好像跌了落一個深淵，走不了出來，但沒有人知，又沒有人想或可以理。點算？繼續等，等自己有力時再走出來。

唔係可以點？你估人人都可以這樣幸運，在你需要時扶你一把？

 

有人說我是一個很堅強的人。是嗎？ 還是他們想我是一個堅強的人呢？

"其實我怕你總誇獎高估我堅忍，其實更怕你只懂得欣賞我品行；無人問我寂寞盡頭何處去養傷,原來是我的心境高到變為偶像."

 

我覺得寫底和分享所思所想應該是好的，因為我唔知道我幾時唔可以再寫，唔可以再講。

每當我專注一個目標
而全力以赴時，
生活的節奏和韻律
就開始紊亂；
自我也變得模糊、疏離。

而社會不就是如此地
目標導向，
來追求成功和卓越嗎？

但究竟有多少目標，
偉大到一個地步，
得犧牲掉 ──
生活本身的神聖性？

生活不是為了一個目標，
生活，就是為了
好好生活。

品嚐佳餚，泡杯好茶，
讓音樂伴奏人生，
暢快地運動，
舒服沐浴、好夢入眠，
鑑賞美景，品味藝術，
享受閱讀，
書寫心裡的感動。
活在愛中，
虔誠地禱告。

這不是沒有目標，
而是拒絕 ──
為目標而生活。

它將目標融化為生活。
在享受與沉醉之際，
不知不覺
實現了目標。

就像是老子的「無以為」 ──
無所「為」而為。
功成、事遂，
我自然。

If it tastes like caviar, looks like caviar and feels like caviar, why do you keep telling me that's it's just "some plain roe"?  Well, I guess everyone can call it whatever it is.  Does that mean if we dump it right now, I'll be losing just "some plain roe", and you'd just lost some caviar...?

 

Chicken first or egg first?  Both, because God created them at the same time.  Trust me, you'd want them both in order for you to keep having the chicken and the egg.

 

I want a star on my hand... I want someone to give me a star on my hand...

Casper is 7 years old now.  Yesterday was the first day he went to an off-leash park. 

 

Casper has always been on leash when he went out, and I always thought that since he's not neutered, he'll definitely run away if I let him loose.  He is always so excited to see and greet dogs around the neighborhood, bark at the dogs walking by everyday, I thought off-leash park will be like heaven to him.  So yesterday when we went to the park, I took off the leash and then sat down, waiting for him to start roaming around, making friends and/or enemies with other dogs.

 

To my surprise, he was so uneasy at the park, so anxious and scared.  He never left me further than a feet or so, and whereever I walked, he followed, even to the point where he jumped up and just sat down next to me on the bench for the most part. 

 

I tried ignoring him, and pushing him out to play with other dogs.  When he didn't get my support or sympathy, he started looking around for other people (including strangers) to help him fend off other dogs.  I cannot believe it, especially when I saw him drooling so bad.  I don't remember how many pieces of paper towels I've used to wipe him, but he's still drooling non-stop.  SIGH!!

 

He did make some friends, of course, but those are all people, not dogs.  He was just interacting with humans mostly at the park, and tried to stay away from the dogs.  He was so relieved to see that we were finally planning to leave.  Although the first attempt was not successful, I think I will still bring him to the off-leash parks,  and hopefully the exposure will make him more comfortable around other dogs.  He IS a dog afterall...  Spring is approaching, a good time to go out more. 

 

BTW, there were no pictures to show this time because I felt bad taking poor Casper pictures like that, although afterwards I did think that it wasn't a bad idea to capture those memories.  Oh well.... there's always the next time.  Muahahaha.....

Music has always play a very important role in my life.   I saw the lyrics of this song (which I like a lot, btw)) on my friend's spaces today:

 

眼淚成詩
我已經　已經把我傷口化作玫瑰
我的淚水　已經變成雨水早已輪回
我已經　已經把對白留成了永遠
忘了天色　究竟是黑是灰
分手傷了誰　誰把他變美
我的眼淚寫成了詩已無所謂
讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉
因為回憶總是美＊
我已經　已經把絕情變成了恭維
因為不配　你就忽然自卑說聲失陪
我已經　已經把沉默變成了懺悔
無路可退　只能無言以對